My feelings regarding the spring semester are complicated, to say the least. I know now that I won’t be staying in Philadelphia past this year, something that had already affected my motivation. Especially in regards to coming back to Philadelphia at all. But what do I want from this semester, my final at this particular institution? Remember: goals not dreams.
Maintain my 4.0 GPA. It remains, as always, important to me to do well academically. It is also important for my transfer and financial aid prospects. Part of me also wants to prove to my sister that this success is something I can repeat. I worked intensely last semester to achieve this goal and goddammit, I did it! But does it mean anything if I can’t keep it going? Like a scientific experiment, do my results matter if I can’t repeat the steps and get the same result?
Take better care of myself. This is perhaps more of a New Year’s Resolution, but I don’t do those. I want to be a generally healthier person– and this does not just mean losing weight. Hell, I lost some weight purely on accident at the end of the semester, probably because I spent three weeks stressed out and rarely eating. It may sound strange, but I’m a little pissed because my favorite jeans don’t really fit anymore. Just when I was getting comfortable in this body, it went and changed. But being healthy is about not being exhausted going up the four flights to my room everyday. It’s about staying hydrated and giving myself a break. I also want to get back to doing yoga and, cautiously, going to the gym. Especially because I no longer have a roommate and don’t have to worry about anyone walking in on me. My class load is also less, so I know I have time.
Keep up the creative pursuits. This should be easy. I’m more motivated to write these days than ever before, and I’m in the process of writing some essays I think I’m going to be really proud of. They’re stewing around in my brain. I’m also taking a class on the creative suite which should help me get back into art, which I’ve sorely missed.
Bonus Things: Read and listen more (currently reading Capitalism: A Ghost Story and listening to Serial, the first season. Totally hooked). Be nicer to my skin. Floss.
Whether we think consciously about it or not, we all make goals.
I am a success oriented person. Winning feels great. I don’t play sports, but I love to watch them, and I love to see the guy I’m rooting for win. If I find something and I think it’s meaningful, I automatically put 110% into it– it’s just part of who I am. For the moment, the thing on the top of the list is school and that’s how it’s been for a long time (we could get into how thinking about not being in school terrifies me, but, shudder).
I think this blog is getting up there. I’ve proven to myself that I can do this, publishing three times a week, so it’s about time I hack out some more concrete goals.
- Be more involved with the community
Comment on more people’s blogs, first and foremost. I’ve also been thinking about starting a twitter account just for this blog (now that my personal one is private) so I can share relevant content to. I don’t want this blog to just be me typing words at a screen– I want an experience for me and my readers.
- Sustain a more unified style/theme
Sometimes this blog is all over the place. I write about whatever I want, mostly, and that’s great. But sometimes my style dips from narrative to conversational, even in one post. This is something that can definitely be helped out by better scheduling and an organized tagging system.
I definitely need to invest in a calendar or planner of some sort reserved for this blog only. Some weeks I have a huge output, where inspiration just hits me and I can write, three, four posts in a couple of hours. Other weeks I just have lists and quotes. I want to make sure there’s a better mix of all these things. It’s not fun to wake up on a Monday and realize you have nothing to post (like today).
- Photos and Photoshop
I want to be able to have my own original photos and Photoshop my own graphics, which takes both time (on the Photoshop front) and money (on the camera front). It’s not question these things would improve the quality of this blog, but the question is availability. I might have to come back from this one– especially because I do not have the money to buy a new, nice camera right now. Even my phone camera is crap– I still rock the iPhone 4. Featured images with the title is also something I want to look into doing more, but once again, that would involve actually knowing what I’m doing beforehand.
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